A day for quiet contemplation. A day for walking in the campo, reflecting on wonderful memories of my special mother on the day that would have been her 82nd birthday. The first one without her ….. the first of many such firsts, sadly. Reflecting too on 2012 as it slowly disappears over the horizon. A year of sorrow, loss, endings and beginnings.
A year when old friends have been hugely important. I have cried on their shoulders, they have phoned just when I needed it, they have been there with coffee, cake, tissues and support. New friends, even some as yet unmet, have also offered real kindnesses.
My walk today offers wide vistas, huge horizons, paths leading into the unknown, safe paths and rocky paths. All the choices of which way to go are mine alone to make. A horse gazes implacably back at me on the hillside below. He is tethered, his choices limited. Above, a hawk dives in and out of the clouds, turning as he wishes, his choices unlimited. Between them I walk in the sunshine and the shade, picking my own route, my choices limited only by me, my caution, my indecision.
My chosen path disappears over the horizon. Time to turn back? Or to take a step onward, into the unknown? Only a moment’s hesitation ……..
© Tamara Essex 2012
Thinking of you on this special day, Tamara. May all your choices be joyous ones. xx
Thanks Marianne x
Hi Tamara I have been out of town and just got back from Halifax, NS where I was attending a nurses footcare conference. I can only imagine what it will be like when I am without my parents. I am treasuring them now. My prayers are with you and enjoy the walk about in Colmenar. It is a great place to gain solace.
Hope all is well
You’re right, it is a very calming and regenerating place, Susan. Looking forward to sharing long walks there with you next year x
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